Friday, July 19, 2013

An Invitation



The house is quiet tonight and I'm thinking about Detroit. Part of me wants to move there now, take a stand and tell everyone around not to worry, it'll be alright. You can't bankrupt the soul from a city. It suddenly seems important to stick up for a place I've scarcely known. It's receding before our eyes and I want to make it matter.

I'm thinking so much these days about the small and the forgotten. I'm leaning my heart into all the ways I've felt overlooked or misunderstood, the times I've felt my feet sliding backwards. God is at work on my heart. He's showing me the pride in my stubborn belief that I don't struggle with jealousy and greed. I do. He's standing right here, nudging my shoulder with His own - Look around you, Girl. See the way life seems to be working in reverse? I want it that way.

I'm starting to believe that there is treasure in the small. I'm seeing the way real riches - those more universal and eternal than the dollar or euro - rain down around my shoulders in the moments I feel invisible.

God opposes the proud but favors the humble. (James 4 - just go ahead and read the whole chapter. Ouch!)

Will I ever fall in love with being unassuming? Anonymous?

Can I value the trenches of my life and believe they were hand-carved by the One who created me?

I don't know exactly where this journey of the heart will take me, but I'm so thankful for a God who chooses me, scoops me up, waits patiently for me to learn, and raises a ruckus when a little bit of truth finally clicks into place.

His world does work in reverse. Almost every word Jesus breathed reminds us of this, so why does this truth feel so new? How did I manage to twist the Gospel into a description of the life I was already living?

His plans are so majestic, so ready to blow our American, middle-class minds.
But they are hidden in the Small.


"I used to think God's gifts were on a tall shelf and the bigger I became, the more I was able to reach his best gifts. Now I know that God's gifts are on a tall shelf, and the smaller I become, the more I am able to reach his best gifts." - Greg Fiandt


21 comments:

  1. Love your heart and words. And as a metro Detroiter I'd for sure welcome you with open arms! Detroit isn't worried, it's hip to be the underdog and arts and resourcefulness are rising from the ashes.;)

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    1. You have me smiling ear-to-ear. "Detroit isn't worried". Now I REALLY want to go! ;)

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  2. shannan. amen!
    i'm on a similar journey to change. being content and alive in the small, or even in the pain.
    god's cleaning my clock about so much.
    it hurts so good.

    love you so! xo

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  3. "He's showing me the pride in my stubborn belief that I don't struggle with jealousy and greed." For me this has been one of the hardest parts of this "dream farm" leaving adventure. Hard, but good. But HARD just the same. It's easy to not realize your own jealousy when you have all you want, even if you've deceived yourself into believing that the all you want is fairly modest. I want more (an abundant life in Christ). Thankfully God is changing what "more" means to me, but at the moment that depends on the day.

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    1. By "you" I was meaning me. You got that right? :)

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    2. Yes, yes. You speak my language. :)

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  4. His plans are majestic - but sometimes I let my own get in the way. I must decrease so that He may increase in me.

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  5. "His world does work in reverse. Almost every word Jesus breathed reminds us of this, so why does this truth feel so new? How did I manage to twist the Gospel into a description of the life I was already living?"
    loved this. thank you.

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  6. Appreciate your heart, and your words...I needed this today.
    Be blessed!

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  7. I am right there with you, but I don't have the words yet....just the feeling in my soul...a nudge, a niggle, an incessant tiny dripping...and a joy that God won't let me alone.

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  8. Shannan, you so beautifully expressed what the Lord is teaching me, teaching many of my friends. Realizing that striving, wishing for more draws me away from His best for me. Like Zech 4:6-7, 10, I want to not despise the days of small things.

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  9. Google 'ruins of detroit.' If that doesn't make you want to pack up and go this second I don't know what will!

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  10. THIS.

    "His world does work in reverse. Almost every word Jesus breathed reminds us of this, so why does this truth feel so new?"

    Girl, and entire book could be written with this as an introduction.
    How 'bout you grab a pencil?

    ~ Blessings,
    Dana

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  11. Brad is from Lansing. We hit Detroit for his grandma's funeral a few years back. Lots of beautiful old homes!

    Please do not visit Richter's restaurant-or maybe do it for the experience! His stepdad's fave! I think it took a good hour to get service. At one point I threatened to cross the street to Panera due to hunger.

    Love your heart and your concern. You are a good egg!

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  12. I am right with you on this journey! I just finished reading Kisses from Katie and it truly has changed my way of thinking!

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  13. Shannan ~ Thank you for being you. For writing the way you do. For teaching us to listen closer to the tiny blessings that happen around us each day. For opening my eyes this evening with your beautifully written prose. You are such a wonderful testimony of God's grace. ♥

    xoxo laurie

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  14. I love you.
    That is all.
    I love you and your heart and your little house in the middle of some city and I love that you live the small.

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  15. His world DOES work in reverse.
    I'm with you...always wonder why it surprises me when it hits me square in the face.

    He is in the small...I needed that reminder this morning.

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  16. "You can't bankrupt the sould from the city" --yes. One of the highest forms of helping others is advocating for them...thank you for writing this.
    --Courtney from Grand Rapids, MI

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