Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Where it Really Started


I believe that God puts people in all our lives that He wants us to be in relationship with. He wants more than our casserole or our free babysitting. He wants us to fall in love with them.

Fortunately for all of us, the path to falling in love is often paved with the ordinary. For us, it was plain white rice with soy sauce and Ramen noodles. Birthday dinners and work boots. It was an empty bed in our big house. A ride to school. An enthusiastic cheering section for backyard acrobatics.

There were things these kids needed and, wouldn't you know it, we were able to help. But love seeps past the edges of the tangible things that bring us together. It filters through them. It's what our hands are left holding when the meal is over and the lights are out.

Our two big kids are both 18 now. They say they're grown. But just like my Mama probably didn't believe it of me, I refuse to believe it of them. They're still babies. They need things. There's a heap of stuff they still don't understand. They walk through life and it's all up-hill, often by choice.

Remembering back to the days I met them, I couldn't have imagined what would come next. I never dreamed that I'd still be cooking them food and kissing their babies' cheeks.

I had no idea that I would fall in love with them and call them my own. I was just having them over for dinner back then. No big deal.

Here's the thing: When I say God brought them into our life, it did require a little of our own movement. He wasn't blindingly obvious. We had plenty of outs and we had people reminding us that we were free to skip it.

God just nudged us over that way a little. He didn't push. We didn't receive "A Word From The Lord". Cory had started working at a school filled with teenagers who needed some people in their corner, so we took one out to dinner and invited another one in.

At the time, we were waiting for our house to sell, waiting to find out where we would move, waiting to see what our real ministry would be. We could have called it a season of rest, but we just weren't in the mood to rest and it seemed like there might be a better use of our time. So we actively pursued some people. We tracked them down and rested when we could.

And yes, of course it was all God. He was the one worming into our heads. It could only have been Him whispering for us to go there. But we never had that clear sign. So we made a choice to act in a way that we knew He would not find fault. We did the doing and trusted that He would keep being his same bad, sovereign self through whatever happened next.

The irony is that now, here we are, in our new community, and these big kids are what keep us busiest. These big kids that we thought were sort of there to keep us occupied until the main thing happened ended up being the main thing.

So I wonder what life would look like now if we had just stayed quiet and waited for what God was shouting about. What if we had opted out of His tiny whisper? How many times have we sat waiting, and what (who) do we lack now as a result?

I should know by now that Jesus is the King Supreme of backwards.

I should know that His faintest whisper sometimes brings the loudest change.


31 comments:

  1. I LOVE that last line.

    Oh how I want to hear those whispers and not miss a one. I just need to be still. Be still.

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  2. You fill my head with things to ponder and reflect on. You must think I have plenty of free time on my hands. Well, God whispered here a while back and now a little Firecracker sucks up all of my free time. Lucky for you she took kindly to bedtime this evening.

    God does have the coolest whispers. Although, sometimes I wish He'd write me messages on my bathroom mirror where I could see them in plain sight.

    Of course, that would likely freak me out.


    xxoo

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    1. He did the same with us! Funny how everyone around us gave us lists of excuses.

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  3. I LOVE this line.... "I should know by now that Jesus is the King Supreme of backwards"! This has been so true in my own life. Thanks for these posts!

    One of the places I hear His wonderful whispers is while shopping at Walmart ...building relationships with the cashiers and the gal at the deli counter. There's Linda and Janet and Diane. Diane just broke her arm and God whispered that I should take her dinner. I am not sure anyone had ever done that for her.

    I don't want to miss a single whisper...at Walmart or anywhere else.

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    1. Girl, take her!!! I am smiling so big for you. And Diane. She might look at you a little like you're crazy at first, but she'll also love it. You are Going. I'm amazed. Thank you for sharing and please keep us posted!

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  4. He really does
    do the most unexpected things
    when we throw ourselves
    across His path

    okay

    sometimes a lot of the time
    i do less throwing
    and more slow blind reluctant groping and hoping
    that He'll redeem my clumsy effort

    and
    oh
    how
    He
    does.

    {alison}

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    1. Oh, the way he redeems our clumsy efforts. LOVE this.

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  5. Hey FPFG! I'm one of your quiet readers, but I just wanted to take time tonight to say thanks. Thank you for taking time to share your story. Thank you for thinking past the status quo. Thank you for challenging me to listen and to go.

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  6. That tiny whisper that keeps you awake at night, tossing and turning. Yup.

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  7. I really feel God is whispering in our ears right now. We are waiting with anticipation at what is around the corner.

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  8. i felt like this about homeschooling. if i remember correctly i think i yelled "can't you just write a huge YES in lightning bolts if i am supoposed to do this???!!!" nope, He didn't. just whispers.

    and my oldest child? i soooooooooooooo want to send him back. i feel like i can.not.handle.him. alas, i am heeding and keeping him at home...while banging my head against the walls.

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  9. the last 2 lines. you are slaying me.

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  10. A few things:

    You rock.

    I love it when the "thing" that you believe is only occupying your time until the main event becomes the main thing in your life. That's happening to me.

    I also loved the story above about Diane and the whispers Karen is receiving at Walmart. I have begun hearing similar whispers lately. It started with my mail lady, realizing she was having a rough time and leaving her a few nice things and a note in my mailbox for her. I also have plans to do some things for the ladies I see working hard at my Dollar Tree and a few other places. A lot of people do NOT get it. It's nice to come to your blog and see and read about so many who do.

    Very inspirational!

    xo

    TT

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    1. I so get you, Tiny. But you already knew that. I'm in amor with your heart.

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  11. He's teaching me about this through those whispers. My trust in Him is exponentially expanded every time I respond to those gentle nudges and am obedient in pursuing them, and Him. "Actively pursuing" is radical obedience. It's worship lived out. I'm noticing this. It's remarkable what happens when we opt in to His whisper, eh?

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  12. What a breath of fresh air, thank you!! I have missed reading your blog, such as life, I myself have not been on here. Love this post, needed to hear it.
    XOXO
    April

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  13. The whispers. I have to still the noises in my head so I can hear the whispers.

    You've made this come alive:
    And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these.

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  14. Jesus is King Supreme of backwards... yes, Yes, YES!!!!!!! Wow... spot on, my friend!

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  15. Beautiful, Spirit-led writing. Love it. Inspiring, convicting, reassuring.

    This: So we made a choice to act in a way that we knew He would not find fault.

    Wow. Amazing insight and courage here. You have a cool heart. :)

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  16. So many times the thing we think is the in between is the 'main thing'. My husband and I find the proverbial waiting room to be way more hectic than the actual destination.

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  17. I love how you think you know the thing but it’s not really that. I love how He puts a smack down on what you “know.” And I love those whispers. Or the giant neon flashing sign. I love the listening. And I love seeing it all unfold. xoxo

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  18. I can't tell you how many times I sit and read your blog and end up crying my eyes out. It is so refreshing to know that someone else speaks the same language as me! God has used you and your blog to encourage me so much recently. When so many people are telling me to give up and that some people are a lost cause you encourage me not to give up. God DOES put people in our lives that He wants us to be in a relationship with...and He does want us to fall in love. Even if that means we get hurt in the process. It is only when I fully trust in Him that I can really hear those whispers.

    Again, thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

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  19. I just wish I could hug you in real life, that is all.

    xo

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  20. thanks for being His vessel, shannan.
    these posts have been speaking directly to my heart.
    xo

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  21. I'm frightened by how similar we are and our stories too . . . crazy

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  22. Catching up on a few of your posts...... Love this one! Thank you for your stories, for reminding us about the whispers and how important they are. Thank you for helping me to see the "waiting space" in a different light, now I'm on high alert that those things that come my way while waiting might just be the things I've been looking for all along.

    Your words are carving deep into what's been working and swirling around in my brain and heart for a while now. Thanks again.

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  23. I am another of your " quiet readers" which is so not like me to be quiet! (: i come to your blog when i am feeling confused by what God is doing in our lives. We are currently waiting on a waitlist for our daughter in ethiopia....waiting for our house to sell so that we can live mote dimply and do more for others....waiting for me to find a better job...see the trend? just feels like alot of waiting and it is exhausting. i so needed this reminder that although we continue to wait on the next big thing, something to change in our financial situation so we can do more, maybe we are still waiting because THIS is our big thing. I needed to be reminded that our three precious boys will grow up while we are waiting. wish i could hug your neck. it does my heart good to know others are striving for the same things in this life that i am. and i thank God for using you to speak truth in my life! (:

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  24. Oops sorry for the typos! meant "more simply" (:

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