Thursday, September 27, 2012

A Million Miles in A Year. Just One.

I blinked for just a second yesterday and my baby turned four. Well, fine, it was more than a one-second blink. It may have been more like a teeny, tiny cat nap, because blinking too long leads to that sort of thing these days.

Regardless, I didn't see it coming.

He was greeted by this when he came downstairs. He called it a car wash. He told every single person he encountered, "Today's my birthday. I'm foe. I get a car wash."

Yeah, it was hard to explain.

What's this, you ask? And what does it have to do with four-year old birthdays? Well, it's individual cups of homemade mac & cheese. For his pre-school party. It's just how homeboy rolls. It was that or kimchi, okay? We opted not to put our money on fire-hot cabbage.

No one wants to incite birthday treat anarchy.
This was our insurance policy against said potential revolts.

And now, a word on mini Milky Way race cars:

The candy bars crack. I just want to warn you of that in case you're a fellow only-partially-recovering Type-A. Our cars were all busted up in the rear. Every one of them had been rear-ended by an unseen force. It's almost as if Cory was behind the wheel of all of them.

Also, you may not have noticed (I hadn't) but Teddy Grahams are divided (unevenly) among cheery, "arms up!" teddies and stodgy, grumbly, pouty, stomp-around, arms-down bears. I didn't figure it out until I was a good 6 cars in. The arms-downs looked all wonky and mean. So I had to excise them from their vehicles and call in replacements.

Another thing? Brown M&Ms. You just can't put a brown tire on a brown car. Trust me on this.

You can, however, put 3 blue tires and 1 orange tire on a car, in honor of your brother's high school Chevrolet with the single orange door. It's your call.

As you can see, the day was already almost too much to handle.

We loaded up all three boys (see Charles and Baby Nolan above) for a special dinner out. As fate would have it, they all share a birthday, though Baby Nolan reportedly turned six.

His only request was that we all wear our boots.

We had to wake them up for dinner. They were all a bit sullen at first.

But chopsticks and kimchi cukes have a way of changing things.

He plowed through an entire plate, double-fisting his chopsticks (which he uses more like skewers.)
They brought out a massive bowl of ice cream covered in caramel and scraped the caramel off and ate it, then pushed the ice cream aside, saying he was full, only to eat more kimchi by the fistful.

Cory and I had such a blast on our Siley date. He was so much fun, so charming, so alive, so fully Silas. All day long, my heart was pinched up with that I'm so lucky feeling. I look at those eyes and see a whole world, an entire volume. I know it hasn't all been written yet. I know we've only known him for two-and-a-half years, but we've lived a lifetime together. All of the pain and the sorrow, all of the tears (ours and his), have slowly begun to give way to hearts that are mostly stitched back together. We have suffered with him and it has made us a family, for real and forever. He's finally able to let go of some of his anger, making space for things like learning and growing and yes, (hallelujah) sitting quietly now and then for an episode of SuperWhy!

We love you so much, Silas Park. You really are four now. You really are big.

Some of Siley's favorite things at 4:
potty humor (totally tops the list)
Baby Nolan
mommy shirt
chocolate milk
spicy cucumbers
cell phone ring tones
pretty lights
sprinklers, hoses, and general water
The Carrot Seed
This cd (aka "Bible schools")


  1. happy birthday 4 year old!! why does 4 seem so much older?? Our little ones are so close in age - again, meant to be friends!!

  2. Happy Birthday sweet Siley boy.

    Please ask your Mommy to get you your own blog for your birthday. Sometimes she talks about other stuff here. The nerve.


    Your Biggest Fan

  3. We love you, Silas-the-big-boy! Happy birthday! I love your birthday treats! You rock!

  4. I miss that face! Happy Birthday, Silas!!!!

  5. Your antics of fashioning car parts to a candy bar made me laugh out loud. And then there was something about the name Nolan. I just couldn't stop my out loud laughing. I even got a "Oh no... she's laughing out loud again trying to get me to come see what's so funny" from my hubby. Yes, I do do that. But not this time. Thanks for the funny somethings. I really needed that after a long week of potty training.

  6. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday Dear Silas...... (wait for it) Happy birthday to you!

    What a cutie pie. My favorite picture? The birthday boy & friends napping. Too precious!

  7. Happy birthday to Siley! Such beautiful eyes in a sweet face. I love his car wash.

  8. Love how you love on your littles. Happy bday Silas!!

  9. silas is super fun. takes after mom. and those race cars? you overachiever.

    happy birthday big cutie boy!!!

  10. Happy Birthday Lil Man! I like my KimChi too~Cheers Kim

  11. What a beautiful tribute to such a sweet boy! I really love,

  12. Every time you post a picture of this sweet child I think of this: "Sorry, people!" I had to hunt to find that post, but slays me, it does. Happy big 4th birthday to your littlest man. And good job on the car wash! Too cute!

  13. "I'm foe." Heehee :)
    I love his name. Happy birthday, Silas!

  14. What a marvelous two and half years of watching our little guy grow and take his place in our family. Silas, God chose you for us ,and us for you, and it makes my heart sing. I can't wait to see what life has for you. Mommy forgot one thing on your "list" you also love the dang, as in the door bell, where ever you find them. We love you soooo much BIG BOY. But please, could you slow down a little?

  15. Happy Birthday to your littlest man! I love the mac n' cheese cups! We tend to forgo sweets here, for yummier treats too. May all the birthdays to follow be as special and heart-warming as this one.

  16. if he's like either of my boys (small AND big), that list topper might never change...

    happy, happy birthday to Sweet Silas!

  17. Happy Birthday to Silas! I cannot believe he's 4 already. Time really flies in blogland. It's been fun to watch him grow and see personality develop through your posts. I'm glad he enjoyed the car wash. So adorable!

  18. I'm loving the car wash thing, I'll be smiling about that one all day. Happy Birthday sweet boy!! Yes, it goes too fast, little Sophia is five but it feels like just yesterday we got the call and rushed off to Vegas to get her. I love that last shot btw, I think I'll have to take one like that. xo, Jessica

  19. Happy Birthday to your boy! 4 years old!!!!
    I copied/pasted your last part about suffering with him until you guys are family....
    I sent it to a friend who just got home with her 7 year old son from Ethiopia. They are struggling. She is struggling. HARD. I knew your words would help her to see a little light at the end of the tunnel.

    love all the things he's loving right now. :)

  20. Yay for "The Carrot Seed"! I am sad that we don't read it any more. :(

  21. Happy birthday, Silas! You are wonderful parents. :)

  22. Happy Birthday to Siley Pie. That boy is man pretty. Love the celebratory car wash. Will a Tahoe fit?

  23. It's very cool to see how far he has come! I love that he loves kimchi. Does Calvin too? I can't remember. Also, we need a house tour soon! Even in-progress! :)

  24. Happy, Happy Birthday, Silo!

    I agree with Mrs. Fox. That carwash is awesome! And individual mac and cheese? You are brilliant, Farmgirl.

  25. Happy Birthday to Silas! What a total cutie pie. I love the car wash & the fact he was too full for ice cream but not for the kimchi.

    Also, thanks for the heads up about the little cars. I may never make them in real life, but I make them in my head every time I see them on Pinterest. I had no idea that half of the teddy grahams were debbie downers!!! How weird & hilarious! I'm wondering if heating the knife first (like in a cup of hot water) would help with the cracking? At any rate, they're impressive.

    Have a fabulous weekend!

  26. The car wash cracked me up. Awesome. HB to Siley! Care to share how you make kimchi cukes?

  27. Oh Siley. I love him and his four year old tastes.

  28. Heartwarming and super cute post!

    The head's up on the bears and the cars..the "you can't put a brown wheel on a brown car" rule..LOL! and I mean "lots of love" as well!

    Baby Nolan..turning six? Hilarious. Kimchi. The car wash. His love of boots. So sweet and cute!

    Where DOES the time go? I can't believe my littlest little (Emerson, nephew) is going to be TEN in January! I remember him at 1, 2, 4...all of the stuff his mom worried about.."he won't wear shoes!" "he won't stop grabbing at his privates!" "he can't seem to read very well!" and how he's overcome it all and is SUCH a great, smart and unique kid.

    I'm so glad you have Siley and he has you. And I second what someone said above: He needs his own blog!

    Does he still like "da pitty lights"?



  29. Re-reading above: I guess he does still like pretty lights! What is the mommy shirt?

  30. Happy Birthday Siley Boy! What a darling. I could eat him up with a spoon.

    This morning, before my eyes were even open, I heard a potty joke from the room next door. Seriously? It's 7am people! And my SiGuy is crazy about that cd. "You you you, you can trust God...." allllll day around here. We gotta get these boys together!

  31. beautiful to the max. hooray for silas!!
    love the birthday boy and his babies. he and elijah would be fast friends. especially bonded by their quirky baby love and affinity for fire hot goodness.
    awesome race cars. and i think all teddy grahams are kinda creepy, no matter which way their stumpy arms pose. but that's just me.

    love you, a whole lotta loves. xo

  32. happy birthday siley! sounds like you all had a fantastic day :) and i loved that you all wore your boots for your birthday date.

  33. Happy birthday to that sweet and spicy boy of yours! He is too cute for words and so are the Milky Way cars!!

  34. Love the balloon car wash! I wish I could have a birthday like that. ;) My littlest guy turns three in a couple of weeks and i just might try those cars.

    1. Also, my little brother is from South Korea. My mom and dad went and got him for me when I was 4. I wrote about him in this post:

      I'd love it if you'd pray for him, because I think you're serious about praying.

  35. oh, silas. happy fourth. you are so thoroughly loved.

    ps my little brother (the noel brother) used to skewer his food just like s. stunningly effective.

  36. First, only you would remember Noals orange car door :) I laughed hard and loud on that one, every Indian in the room turned to see what the deal was.
    Second, time is ticking away and I'm sad to know I've missed another birthday, yet I trust it is worth the trade to celebrate newborn birthdays as I deliver/welcome them into this world with prayers, warm hands and lots of hugs and kisses.
    Happy Be-lated Birthday BIG BOY Si-pie and Nolan. Auntie Keisha Loves you so much!!