Monday, January 2, 2012

NY in OH



There's something that I find monumentally important about ringing in the New Year from the balm and the warmth and the dryer-hum of my childhood home. I won't say that it's a necessity, but I will say that it seems to have nosed itself into a regular tradition, and it's one that I have no intention of breaking.

It still gets kid-crazy here. It's much too loud much too late. But it's all somehow sized up in a special kind of relaxing. The air smells like firewood and the food tastes like the stuff I was raised on, home-canned beans, applesauce, scrambled eggs and Vernor's Ginger Ale.

This tiny town that grew me up, it seemed so big when I was young. A bike ride across town felt like a whole day's journey, the kind where you probably better pack a sack lunch or at least have two quarters in your pocket for the pop machine.

Today I saw from edge to edge with just one smooth sweep of my gaze. It's all right there, in its close, fond, quirkiness. I'm proud to be a part of it. It's grounding, this connecting of my past with my future.

I have no resolutions this year. I almost never do. I know I will change. I know I'll stretch and strain and the pulling on my heart might make it feel like it's all too much, too fast, or maybe that it's not nearly enough. It's too soon to say. But my hope is that I'll lean harder into the only solution that ever works.

I also hope I'll read more books, because I miss them.

I hope I'll stop eating crack bark like it's a normal thing to do in the middle of the day.

I hope I'll go to sleep earlier; that I'll shed more of my selfishness; that my love will be blazing orange, not a single shade paler.

From where I sit, the land where chocolate milk flows freely, Tom & Jerry plays on a loop and naps are just a La-Z-Boy away, the future looks like a wide sky of opportunity, so ready for me to run wild right into the middle of it.

Happy 2012, Homies. Let's run wild together.


32 comments:

  1. I'm not having any trouble but I would try to downsize the quality (probably not the right term) and then try uploading it.

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  2. well, at least you have your word pictures.
    I never have resolutions either, I guess I'm not a resolution-y type.
    Do you have a secret for reading books without hopelessly abandoning your real life until you finish? Because I swear, Books for me are impossible. I can't do anything else once I start. Speaking of which...I want to read your book super bad.

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  3. I almost never have resolutions either. Thanks for making me feel better about it. I want to change and grow and by grace I know I will. Let's run wild and give and love all the more. Cheers, my dear!

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  4. Yes, lets run wild together! Sounds like a great year to me! Can't wait to see what God has planned for you (and me too).

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  5. Happy New Year to you and your bunch! I look forward to another year...a fresh start:)

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  6. I love your hometown description. It sounds just like the small town where my grandma used to live in ND. I love our summer visits there. Yes, running wild sounds like a good plan. Happy New Year!

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  7. Oh Vernor's! (yes that's the one thing I'm choosing to focus on out of this whole beautiful post) My mom used to make us drink it when we were sick. And then we moved to Idaho and found out Vernor's hadn't headed west yet. I was a happy girl. And then a few years ago, I saw it sitting on the shelf in our grocery store. I instantly felt sick just seeing that green bottle. Now my tummy feels a little uneasy again just thinking about it.

    (I can't wait to see where the good Lord takes you & yours in 2012!)

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  8. Happy New Year girlfriend! Who needs resolutions when you just copied off a manuscript?!? Seems like a year's worth of accomplishment to me. Also? My Indiana college and Michigan-bred husband introduced me to Vernor's in the early 90s. I'm a fan.

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  9. Happy New Year! Hope it's one filled with joy for your family. (wish I could help with the picture thing but I don't have a clue - just know I miss your pictures!)

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  10. "much too loud much too late" sounds JUST like new years at the family farm in iowa. and i wouldn't have it any other way. here's to watching the next chapter unfold!

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  11. The only problem I've ever had with blogger (I couldn't leave comments) had to do with the 'keep me logged in' box being already checked when I went to sign in. I had to uncheck it and then sign in. This is totally random but if it works, perhaps it'll divert you from your trip to no-photo-crazy-town.

    PS Did you google it? Lots of fixes for 'can't upload photos blogger.' Happy new year!

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  12. This: "I hope I'll go to sleep earlier; that I'll shed more of my selfishness; that my love will be blazing orange, not a single shade paler." Yes. Me, too. I chose love as my one word this year. I'm finding out it's all encompassing. I knew that, but you know?

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  13. this girl has no idea what to tell you about loading photos...I had the same problem months ago and then it just went away and I was able to load pics again..weird.

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  14. I've been having problems loading pictures for at least a week! If I try to do more than one or two at a time it just locks up and "loads" forever. So I've been doing them a couple at a time (so frustrating and time consuming, but it has worked so far). I just figured Blogger was having some issues.

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  15. Shannan,
    You are the LEAST selfish person! And to want to be less selfish? How Shannan of you! I save my photos to my laptop, browse for them and upload them to blogger small and then enlarge via blogger. Hope this helps. Love your photos.
    xo, Cheryl

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  16. I love your childhood home :) and I love how you remember it.
    I don't know about your pictures. Can you send blogger an email?
    I think that happened to me for a while once. I don't remember any details though. I am so darn old.

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  17. I've got some of the very same hopes. Oh girl, I so want to run wild with you into 2012 but I'm finding myself hesitating - I'm being cautious and slow and I don't know if it is right or good.

    About the pictures...have you tried Live Writer? I'm writing my posts there and uploading the pictures there then hitting publish and blogger didn't give me any trouble that way. I don't really know what I'm talking about, but maybe it is worth a shot?

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  18. Every single time you write of home in Ohio, it stirs a longing in me that you can't understand. You are so lucky to have those roots and I love how you fully appreciate that safe place to go back to. Happy New Year to you my friend.

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  19. I wanna read more too but the need for sleep interferes. :(

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  20. The smells and tastes of childhood - onions cooking on the stove, PB&J, vanilla scented candles and ivory soap. Nothing can beat that.
    Have a blessed New Year!

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  21. Absolutely LOVE this! I love going home too. Enjoy the year ahead and feel the blessings ever present around you.

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  22. yes. oh, yes. may it be a productive and grace filled twenty twelve!
    LOVE YOU.

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  23. Your childhood home and town are dreamy and I love that I got to see them for myself.
    It's going to be exciting to tag along, as it seems this year is going to be a pretty amazing one for you in many different ways.
    Happy New Year, Farmgirl!

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  24. your hometown in Ohio sounds a lot like my hometown in Ohio. and all those memories you said remind me of mine. i know my hometown is a few hours from yours but your sharing of your memories made me smile. Happy new year, friend.

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  25. Looking forward to spending another year with your words and photos Shannan. Happy New Year.
    Dana

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  26. I see the photo debaucle has been resolved. Happy New Year Shanny. I look so forward to sharing 2012 with you. xo

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  27. i am so excited to run wild in 2012. i will not be boxed in by resolutions. oh, and you rock!

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  28. "I hope I'll stop eating crack bark like it's a normal thing to do in the middle of the day."

    I promise you, no one else out there actually achieves me laughing out loud as often as you do.

    xox, jenny

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  29. My husband grew up in OH. We live in CO and he came home the other day with a 24 pack of Verner's--he was so excited to find it here!

    Happy New Year!

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  30. Yes. Run wild. Love free. Happy New Year!

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  31. happy new year friend. i need to shed the selfishness too...geesh i just declared january ME MONTH! what in the world??;) i have to blame my grandma's peanut brittle crack. it has to be done...me month.

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