Monday, November 7, 2011

Seeing the Voice



Coming off a weekend where our dead bolt locked itself without us inside the house, Silas single-handedly took out our furnace, and Cory hit a horse and buggy, today was a pretty good day.

The horse was fine, as were all the Brethren.

Our van? It looks like it belongs in a demolition derby. For those of your keeping score, this would count as our third accident in the nine months that we've owned it.

There's no good reason why today felt so bright. It was dreary and drippy and I did lots of chores.

But the secret is getting out, I think - actively hunting down God's love, His wild beauty, His knack for knowing me so well, it turns the lights on. My dim, dusty heart gets a break from itself and I can see that this life is a gift, and every day in it.

I wish I could tell you that I always choose to flip that switch, but I don't. I spent far too much time wallowing and feeling tired. I waste too many heartbeats feeling like a martyr or being lost in a fog of uncertainty.

But today? Today we walked to the pre-school in our rain boots and on one of the hundreds of steps, amid the wasted, washed-up foliage that hasn't made our knees weak in ten days running, I saw a leaf that reminded me of exactly who I want to be. It was full-on crimson at its core and the red bled out to the edges.

I want my heart to beat so true that there's no other option but for it to bleed out to the rest of me, to paint my pale places bright.

This is how God spoke to me today. It wasn't in an online sermon or a Bible study, not today. Today it was one little leaf that I bent low and plucked up.

I'm thankful today that I was looking.


**As of today, we are 25% of the way toward building our well for people who currently have no clean water. It's thrilling to watch that number grow. What could be better than God choosing to work through us? Nothing, that's what. I did discover today that the link for the button on the side-bar wasn't properly linking to the fundraising page. If you pasted the button into your blog (I hope you have!) before today, you may want to check it and see if it's doing what it should do. If it's not, use the updated code. Spread the word! You guys rock.**

32 comments:

  1. You make me want to brush off the last bit of the ache and shine brighter tomorrow.

    Blessed assurance, everywhere we look.

    xxoo

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  2. I want a heart like yours :)

    How long you going to have the fundraiser going? Until the money is all raised or is there an ending date?

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  3. And now He is speaking THROUGH you. Thank you, friend.

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  4. I feel compelled to tell you, that you should press that leaf with your iron between two sheets of wax paper, do some tricky cutting around it and perhaps punch a whole in the top and tie some twine through it and then use it as a book mark to always mark the page of "He who began a good work in you...will be faithful to complete it"...or you could use it to mark your favorite page in the classic novel "Where the Red Fern Grows"...either way...

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  5. I love when God speaks to me through little gifts like your found leaf... isn't it amazing?!

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  6. I am so completely broke right now. My bills have bills. Seriously. But, every day I pray, God, please let me find some money to help with the wells. I know He will help me find it. I just know.

    Thank you for reminding me to look for pretty leaves and pretty moments. Look for Jesus.

    You are a blessing.

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  7. wow! he hit a horse and buggy!!?? holy cow! or...horse?? i'm glad you could flip the switch today. i seem to have flipped mine too. i was so crabby last week...wowza! i'm gonna keep mine flipped tomorrow to if i can :)

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  8. re: deadbolt-Not to freak you out, but could a prior tenant still have a key? Or did the landlord stop in without notice? I have had that happen before. The knob lock and deadbolt were keyed separate and the landlord brought in an appraiser without notice, locked the db on the way out and left be stuck on the porch after work bc I didn't carry the db key.
    re: heater-High 50's is warm in our house. Not by my choice, mind you. Brrr!

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  9. Glad everyone was ok...horse included!
    As ALWAYS enjoyed your (God inspired) thoughts here!
    72,020 ~ Holla worthy indeed!

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  10. Grab that contentment, girl! I did today, too. It was a beautiful day, because God made it, and then I chose to see it as such. Glad the horse is okay. Flip the switch tomorrow. I will if you will. <3

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  11. There was something about today. I just decided to wash my windows. God's sun just shone on in so brightly I couldn't have been more happy. I posted an amazing little video today. Something tells me you would like it.
    Dana

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  12. good for you, some days the whole flipping the switch thing is just so.freakin'.hard. huh? i love when i can turn a day or a weekend around like that.

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  13. I know it is said often, but it is the small things. It truly is.

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  14. You, Farmgirl, are my very favorite crimson leaf in the whole, wide world.

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  15. I had that sort of day today but luckily I did not hit a horse. I think these crappy craps are supposed to keep us dependent on him or something. He's the Father we never outgrow. I love this post, it was so encouraging to me on this practically poopy moment in time. Really I have nothing to complain about but that doesn't stop me. :)

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  16. I'm so glad I get to spend eternity with you. Do you think we can sit and have a cup of coffee in heaven? :)

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  17. I read this post twice just now. Soaking it right up. And can betcha I'll be coming back yet again when I need the reminder. Thanks for this, you.

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  18. Love it! I can't find any other words to say that would express the big smile you brought to my face and the warmth in my heart. Thank you

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  19. I think sometimes He speaks to me the loudest not in the sermons or the songs, but in the little things - in the moments that catch me off guard and surprise me in the best kind of way. So I really like your leaf. :)

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  20. Oh Shannon...this is good.

    I've been learning "to look", too. It's amazing what we see with eyes wide open. Our hearts...softened to see.

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  21. Your bending low to *notice* is your beautiful worship. And your telling of it, too. Honoring. Touching. Beautiful.

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  22. Thank you for this. Just what I needed to hear today.

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  23. Beautiful how you notice the everyday (which is more often than not, not mundane!)

    This is exactly why I keep coming back to your blog and hounding you as a friend..gotcha! ;-)


    "I saw a leaf that reminded me of exactly who I want to be. It was full-on crimson at its core and the red bled out to the edges."

    I've had those moments...and I need to create more of them.

    As always, thanks for the reminder!

    xxoo

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  24. i read this early in the morning and then lo and behold, at the park with my kiddos i saw a leaf just like the one you speak of. and, so i was reminded to "paint my pale places bright." your writing is so good for me. i'll always think of this when i see a life like that.

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  25. I wish I could say that I am always looking for Him in the day...and that I always see the little things.

    I don't, always.
    Yet, sometimes I do.

    I once saw a tree beside a lake bending waaaaaaaaay over - leaning over the water as if it longed to be closer to it.

    I wondered.
    Do I have that kind of faith?
    To reach out, disregarding the pull of gravity, to get closer to what I need?

    Thanks for that reminder.
    I'm glad you picked up the leaf :)

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  26. Looking, trying to listen.... I'll keep you posted.

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  27. I'm spending a little time checking out new blogs, so i thought id stop and say hello to you folks. Richard from the Amish community of Lebanon Pennsylvania.

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  28. Oh. My. Sounds like quite a weekend! Glad everyone is okay. It's amazing, isn't it, how our attitudes can be so different, when we attempt to see life through God's perspective and enjoy the little moments, regardless of the storms around us.

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  29. I think I may be living your life on the flip-side- like if you picked up your life and turned it over... there I am. I found your blog through a blog, and then the dawning realization that I recognize the land where you live because I visit there, and the land that you visit because I live there, and the church camp where you spent an unplanned week is the same one that I plan to spend a week. And then today, after a heartbreaking day spent in the land that you live, because my brother-in-law was the driver in a tragic accident that killed a 15 year old on a bicycle, I open your page to this... the other side of my life, where a buggy was hit, but no one was hurt. I'd spent a little time yesterday, when I passed the spinning turbines, thinking of you, and so I'm finally commenting, because I feel like you'll understand my run-on wordiness is saying... thank you. And I'll give you a little warning if something crazy happens here, because it just may mean crazy will ensue there.

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  30. I love this. :) I love how He speaks so powerfully through things as simple as a leaf. And I love what He spoke to you. I, too, want Him to bleed out to all of my edges. Beautiful post.

    I'm coming by from Beliefchangers linking to you. So glad they did.

    Blessings,
    K :)

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  31. So glad Beliefchangers provided this link. What a gift you have.

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