Friday, October 7, 2011

31 Days: When Letting Go is Easier Than it Should Be (At Least for Now)



Well, as it turns out, I do have some muscles in my legs and I know this because they're sore. I've been packing for days and days. We've been blessed by family and friends who have offered hours here and there, watched our kids, and brought us Subway, apple crisp and cornbread.

Off and on over the past week I've caught myself thinking of the rental house as a quirky little vacation condo. It always alarmed me when I noticed what I was doing. I can only imagine the free-fall to reality that would follow.

All day today, I've been at peace, even when Silas ran up the barn hill wall for the first time in his little plastic cowboy boots. I smiled and then had a flash of a thought, "Wait, shouldn't this be making me sad right now?"

Maybe I'm in denial.

Maybe packing up this place has been so much work that I'm ready to run away and park it for a while.

Or maybe all of the prayers you're throwing our way are working double-duty.

Maybe God really does know all about that invisible thread that tethers us to certain places. He gets it. He helps us cut that thread and he ties it somewhere else, loosely.

So, this is it, folks. It's my last night here in this gorgeous place. I find myself excited for the new owners. I remember my first day here thinking over and over again, "This is mine!" And I hope they feel the same way.

Though the blues lag behind a bit, they're probably sure to follow. And assuming they find me in the next 20-odd days, you'll hear all about it.

But for now, I'm just ready. I'm ready for my cozy vacation home. I'm ready to cook dinner in my duck-bordered kitchen. I'm ready to read the magazines that have been piling up. I'm ready for a winter of ginger-lemon tea and nights where Calvin and Ruby share the room on the other side of our wall.

We're bunking up. And though someone told me that we'll be doing this whole moving thing again in less than a year, I refuse to think about it right now.

One day at a time.

Don't you worry none.

We'll just take it like it comes.

One day at a time. One day at a time. One day at a time.

Luv,
Flower Patch Rentalgirl


*For the rest of the Letting Go series, click here.

40 comments:

  1. I love it, Shannan. :) When it's God it's not so hard, huh?

    It's a new adventure! I'm so excited for you!

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  2. I think it stops feeling like home when you've got your hoard packed up. That explains it all, eh, Rentalgirl?

    But you'll always be the Farmgirl to me, and--if Baby Charleigh wakes me up in the middle of the night--I'll pray just for you.

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  3. I'm glad that you are experiencing the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding right now!!!

    now...i gotta ask, do the new owners know that their house is famous? ;)

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  4. I'm glad that you are experiencing the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding right now!!!

    now...i gotta ask, do the new owners know that their house is famous? ;)

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  5. Went through something very similar, about 20 months go - moved from FL (home for 41 years) to TN. It was the hardest thing I've ever faced, and I couldn't be happier :)

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  6. I have all the confidence in the world that you will make your new house a home and that you will all nestle into it with the warmth of living in the moment.

    XO,
    Jane

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  7. You will always be flower patch farmgirl. And, I am sure that you can make any place a home for your sweet family. Thinking of you this weekend :)

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  8. You will always be the flower patch farmgirl...no matter where this adventure takes you.

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  9. Funny how you mentioned the condo feeling! I thought about that very thing the last two times we went on vacation and stayed in a much smaller space then our home. It seemed so much simpler.....you'll have to tell me the "beyond vacation" feeling - if it's really more simple or not? I'm so ready to do what you're doing (well, maybe not fully - but mentally). I love what you shared with the kiddos in one of your previous posts, attempting to explain to the kiddos why you're doing what you're doing.....I'm ready! Now for patience, until the rest join me. Good luck tomorrow! Wish we could be there!

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  10. Thinking of you and your family tonight as you bunk down and begin your new adventure. I sit looking up at an amazingly clear and bright sky full of stars and hope that peace continues for you.
    Keeping you in my thoughts my small town friend! No matter how big that amazing sky is, how far our journeys take us, home brings us back where the heart belongs!

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  11. One day at a time, yes mam! I am so terribly behind, just read this post and am about to fly to your previous posts. All I know is something glorious is happening, I knew it when we talked into the wee hours in N'ville, you are undoubtedly continually faithfully following where God leads.
    xxxooo

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  12. Bless it.

    There's got to be a twinge of fear and regret hiding in theier someplace, but for goodness sakes God can smooth all of that down to nothing.

    You are brave.

    You are smart.

    You are kind.

    You are important.

    You, are doing the right thing.

    Sleep well tonight, rentalgirl.

    xxoo

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  13. I love your new name! Sweet dreams and happy memories.
    xo

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  14. We are so copying each others stories right now! :) we are right now on our way to a new chapter of our lives in NC. Drove almost 600 miles today...on Sunday afternoon we're gonna unload all our stuff into a rental townhome and then yes, move all over again in a few months. Tiring to think about isn't it?! Good luck girl !!

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  15. You can take the girl out of the country but you can't take the country out of the girl. You'll always be our flowerpatch farmgirl.
    Happy Nesting! I'm sure your rental will feel like home as soon as you work your magic.
    Big Hugs.

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  16. Thinking of you as you cozy up for the last time in your farm house.

    Oh, what adventures await you tomorrow and beyond!

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  17. I'm so grateful for the gift of peace God has given you today...I'm praying this weekend.

    Sleep tight!

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  18. I'll be praying for you and your gang. Home is where your heart is and it is with them for sure. When you are ready to start the house search, let me know. I am available and I know of a trouble making sitter who can come and stir those kids into a frenzy ;)

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  19. I think sometimes we are carried by grace and it can take us so much farther than we ever imagine. I am rooting for you guys, all the way from the other side of the world. Sweet dreams Farmgirl, catch you on the flip side.

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  20. God's peace is sustaining you through every moment of your days. You will make your rental a haven of beauty, love, peace, encouragement and inspiration, not only for your family but for all of your followers who love you. Flower Patch Farm Girl, Renta Girl, you are God's girl no matter where you are.

    Love, hugs and prayers to you and your family as you start this new adventure in your life.

    FlowerLady

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  21. I wish I knew your whole story, for understanding..... we are planning our down sizing and have some of the same issues about our identity, what the future holds for us as to finances. I am really hooked on your story, so glad to find your blog. May you all be at peace and blessed.

    Alyzabeth's Mommy

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  22. Thinking of all of you today, Shannan! Hope the new adventure of your condo is exciting for all. Maybe God isn't cutting the thread to that farmhouse, but stitching together a quilt, one piece worn and weathered, another with a duck motif, another brand new, all part of one family's story.
    xoLisa

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  23. Best of luck to you and your big move. I hope you find it to be bittersweet over bitter!

    In the midst of all that moving, take time out to stop and enjoy the beautiful fall leaves everywhere! I hope that brings you some serenidity. Will be thinking of you.

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  24. He's prepared you to let go. And you worship Him when you are excited for the next family to enjoy the farm.

    This next place...may it be a season of *togetherness* for you and your family in ways you cannot even begin to imagine.

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  25. Good luck on your new adventure! It sounds like it's all falling into place.

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  26. Beautiful words that bring tears, because I've been there and will do it again soon. Love the thought that a house does not define who we are. Maybe that's why the Lord moves some of us around so much. He knows that we need Him more than we need a place...but that doesn't make it any easier. Blessings, and peace for your new home.

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  27. shannan. i love you.

    although i haven't been commenting {phone problems} i have been soaking up this series. it's helped me so. also it has helped me pray specifically for you.
    i love that.

    today will be an exciting day! can't wait to hear all about your rental vacation;)

    xo

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  28. Sometimes the hardest part of letting go is the anticipation. Today is here. The day to close one door and open another. Thinking of you!

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  29. We will all be here helping you in this move. We will be anxious to hear how you are all doing. You are just exchanging houses.......you have the same ingredients for your home......just a different location. I think you will be just fine. Remember COZY is a good thing.

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  30. so glad you are at peace! :) i know god has amazing plans for you and your little fam.

    blessings and hugs!

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  31. love the peace and joy that is radiating through your words tonight....

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  32. oh I totally know, when we moved out of our home we had lived in for 9 years and bought 2 weeks before our wedding, I just knew I was going to be so sad, except I wasn't I kept waiting for it and it never came, I was happy to be in our new place, even though I miss the old, it was okay.

    but still praying for y'all :)

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  33. wow shannan! so much happening. i've missed this little place of blogland. i'm excited to follow along on your new journey! Jesus shines from you...thanks for sharing!

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  34. Sounds sad and exciting at the same time. You're in my thoughts and prayers. I remember how excited you were when you made the move to the country, but think about all you have to give and what a difference you're going to be making. Good luck!

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  35. I have been praying for you. The suspense is killing me though. I might be the girl that flips to the last page of a book. Thank you for sharing your heart + your story.

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  36. take a million pictures of the new place. I think you are on a really cool journey with God and in years to come you'll look as these pictures and see how much you've grown and learned.
    Also, have fun rearranging furniture and decorating, reading magazines, drinking tea, and listening to giggles from Calvin and Ruby on the other side of the wall.

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  37. And get cracker jackin on that book, we are waiting!!!!

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  38. Welcome to your new home friend...

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