Friday, July 22, 2011

Are You Sick of Me Yet?

I survived. Hallelujah.

It's been a good day, ya'lls. And I say "ya'lls" with extra authority tonight, because I am in the South(ish), baby. I mean, ya'lls.

It's always interesting to go off and do something a little wild on my own. When I arrived here earlier today, I knew no one. Zero. That can be a little intimidating, but it's good to force myself to conjure up my inner six-year-old and just make friends with whoever is nearest.

I've already met some fantastic, encouraging, get-real women.

I shared chocolate mousse with a new friend whose heart carries around many of the same things that mine does. I just happened to take the empty chair next to hers. Do you know what that means? That means that I'm not alone. It means that God ordains these little things. He likes it when I connect with someone who encourages me on the path that He's put me on. He likes it when I can do the same for her. He doesn't want us lonely. There's just no good reason for it. So, I'm thankful tonight for that extra shot of gumption. (And chocolate mousse.)

I'm also happy to report that my agent appointment this afternoon went swimmingly. Better than I could have hoped. I left feeling encouraged and like I had gotten some honest, expert advice. The word count on the right is about to go down, but it's all for the sake of the greater good. She confirmed things that I already knew in my gut, and that's a great reminder to me to just trust my instincts, even when I feel like I'm a total novice at this fiction-writing thing.

My new friend and I - the chocolate mousse friend - we talked about how the most fulfilling things aren't typically easy things. It's from the tired eyes and the banged up hearts and heaped up doubts that redemption is often born.

I'm more excited than ever to keep writing.

I'm more thankful than ever for a God who makes himself known to me everyday through people like her and people like you.

Also? Just for the record?

I'm totally missing these rascals. And their Daddy.

They really dig nuts, man.

I'm off now to scour the cable tv for something ridiculously mind-numbing.

As for you? Be assured that I'll not bother you again, at least for the next 24 hours or so.



  1. duude! It's so hard when you don't know people. I'm sure by the end you'll have five thousand loyal fans and 10 billion friends. My math is awesome like that.
    Keep us updated, blog blog blog! YAY!

  2. well inspire me on a daily basis. so i'm glad you have a renewed passion for writing. it's a gift, i tell you! to all of us. have an amazing day tomorrow. xoxo

  3. Quick She Speaks story. I went in 2009 all alone. Didn't know a soul. Just like you. As I was walking through the lobby of the hotel to check in, someone shouted, "Shelly Wildman, is that you??!!" It was Jo-Lynne from "Musings of a Housewife." Really big blogger. Me? Really little blogger. But she recognized me from my picture, and she made the effort to run over, give me a hug, and invite me to sit with her and Tina (Antique Mommy--another big blogger). I will never forget that kindness. It happens all the time at She Speaks.

  4. glad you found a friend... you are pretty charming so I wasn't too worried about ya. Try to watch Celebrity Rehab on VH1 with Dr. Drew. I love that show. and he is my boyfriend. Anxious to hear more!!

  5. Nope.

    Not sick of you yet.


    Was hoping for some updates while you're in the south!

    Please do yourself a solid and try some fried okra.

    Order a coke and see if you are asked "what kind?" and then answer "orange coke"...

    Cable TV for you: I'm excited FOR you! It makes me wonder what's on Bravo tonight..hmm..


    "we talked about how the most fulfilling things aren't typically easy things. It's from the tired eyes and the banged up hearts and heaped up doubts that redemption is often born."

    Ahhh..ain't it the truth, girl. Sigh.

    Soo glad you made a friend.

    Goodnight my friend!

  6. I'm GLAD you chose to share this experience with us instead of keeping us in suspense until Monday!
    Now hopefully you can find your gal Bethany F. to keep you company!

  7. I hate to say I told you so.

    Well... actually, I don't mind at all.

    I. Told. You. So.


  8. I could never ever be sick of you : )
    Ever in a million ba jillion years : )
    Too bad Bethenny isn't on this weekend.
    I just watched a Jennifer anniston movie about a break up.

    That was mind numbing.
    Praying for you.

  9. Love, love, love your blog and have turned so many others on to it ... especially those with a heart for adoption. Your words bless, sister chick!

    Please blog all about She Speaks. I would love to go next year!

    PS: As a transplanted southerner, I learned that "y'all" IS the plural of "you." You don't need the "s" on the end. :)
    If you really want to make sure to include everyone, we say "all y'all." For example, "all y'all get in here and eat this supper I made!"

  10. congratulations on the positive conference experience, making another friend and the affirming visit with a literary agent! (and the cable tv and chocolate mousse. heh.). we've not met, but from what i've picked up from your blog, i am not surprised about all those good things coming your way.

    and God is great. He shall provide!

    hope you can rest, then enjoy being home with your family. hope to learn more about this book you're writing, too!

    best wishes and happiness for you.

  11. So glad you're having fun and making friends! Live it up crazy!

    (But...if someone IS lonely and scared and can't find anyone to sit beside and no one sits by them, does it mean God isn't ordaining any relationships for them? Just a thought...)

  12. Jennifer: Of course not! I hope that what I said didn't come across like that. I think God kind of nudges us to step out a bit. It's not in my comfort zone to strike up conversation with a total stranger, but if I hadn't, I would have missed out on that blessing. These things are gifts, and I do think they are for everyone. But it requires coming away from the corner sometimes! Also, it's filled to capacity here, so everyone is sitting by someone. :)

  13. Nope. I don't think it's possible to get sick of you. You inspire me all the time.

  14. Yea, God bless you! We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!

    touching on what Jennifer said, do you think that sometimes God wants us to come to him first and alone? I find sometimes I go to my friends to much and God wants me to rely on him. But I also believe God puts those people in our paths too. just trust :)

  15. Just as you have your "littles" in your heart and they were meant from the start to be yours, God has you in his heart and is leading you through all these wonderful days. Enjoy it all!!

  16. I'll never get sick of you, friend! LOVE YOU LADY! :-D
    So happy for and proud of you!
    Can't wait to see you again so I can give you a big squeeze!!!


  17. I knew you could do it, I am so proud of you too! I am excited for what God has in store for you and can't wait to hear more about how your weekend is going. Come back refreshed and renewed :-)
    Miss you, not sick of you!

  18. Nevah, evah be sick of you! You got AGENT!!! law.

  19. We all need to strike up our inner six year old spirit every once in a while! It puts us in that uncomfortable place that allows us to grow and learn. Have a wonderful time! :)

  20. How can we possibly be sick of you. I'm way impressed and inspired by your accomplishments.

  21. Sounds like it's been an incredible trip so far. God always knows the right people to put us next to---glad you've been blessed with wonderful conversation and soul sharing. Hope and pray it continues to be a fulfilling and inspiring weekend. PS I absolutely love hotels too---nothing like a good long soak in a hotel tub! ;)

  22. What a wonderful trip! How wonderful to find a friend right away! I bet the mousse was wonderful.

  23. That chocolate mousse friend seems downright inspired. Glad it went well!

  24. I'm glad you found a friend (and chocolate mousse!)

  25. So glad it was positive to keep you moving in the right direction! If anyone, and I mean anyone has anything negative to say about your writing they will have to contend with all of us!

  26. I could never get sick of you. So glad that you're blogging about my home state. Keep us updated. We love it - I promise!

  27. Yay! So glad to hear your meeting went well! I was praying for you yesterday morning. I know you have great instincts. So glad you are getting more affirmation of it. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.

  28. Seriously so excited for you. And I hung up last night with a huge smile on my own pale, white face. (I'm lamenting my pastiness, despite it being July 23.) I'm just so darn happy for you!! :)

  29. I love you like I love my LL Bean catalogs, but as a southerner, I just wanted to let you know that it's "y'all," not "ya'll," or ya'lls." :)

    Also, I went WAY back and read Every. Single. Blog. All of them. Everything you've ever written. I'd give anything to be able to write like you write. I feel like you're actually speaking to me - that I'm not just reading someone's writing. You write as if you're having a conversation and I love that.

    God bless you and yours!