Monday, June 21, 2010

Home

All my life, I've wanted to live in a white farmy house

with a cool, old barn.

I wanted acreage. Just enough for the kids to roam free and for my mind to wander.

Years ticked by and I wanted it more. We moved to a sketchy apartment in DC and I spent weekends tearing out inspiration and snapping it into a binder.

The move back to Indiana was blessing enough and we settled into a pretty, white house on a brick street - a corner lot. It was more than enough.

Our family grew and we pined for a long lane and bedrooms we could fill and the opportunity to feed barn cats in our bathrobes.

Then we were swept up into a whirlwind and when we landed, we were here. It is one of the moments in our life where God directed our path with neon arrows and took our hands to pull our blind faith along.

This house was and is a gift.

We knew for sure that God lavished upon us something that was rooted deeply in our hearts.

We have labored here and we have loved it.

We nudged what was faded toward new life.

I became a farmgirl here, and Cory a real, true worker guy.

We washed sippy cups here, deciphered baby-talk here, watched toddlers turn into kids.

Then we watched in wonder as those kids learned to explore with freedom.

Our hearts grew here.

We were finally home.

Back in February, before Silas, before job loss one and job loss two, I curled up beneath the blankets one night and whispered a truth I knew in my heart, but feared giving life to. "I keep thinking we might be selling our house..." My words hung in the air for a moment, then Cory reached out and grabbed them.

"I keep thinking the same thing."

My heart dropped and tiny tears formed and I wished to high heaven that I hadn't even said it, that it wasn't the truth.

But God has a clever way of making Himself clear. Even more, He has a way of making the unthinkable exiting.

Our house is officially on the market. We are simplifying, not out of necessity, but out of obedience, which is probably the most necessary thing I can imagine.

We believe that we will land somewhere near, but we are learning not to conjure up big ideas of our own. We believe that we will land in town, in a home where our kids will bunk together and where we will watch a new kind of joy and contentment bloom before our very eyes.

God has given us so many of the desires of our hearts, and now He's giving us a new one - one so new that we didn't even know it was in there in the first place.

I have moments of worry and sadness, but here is something I know for sure: There is a purpose. There are purposes. I don't know all of them, but I do know that this will give Cory the freedom to choose his next career step without factoring in the salary. And I know that this will give us additional wiggle room in our finances and in our time, both of which God has plans for. But mostly, this will give us front-row seats as we walk away from the very thing we always wanted and walk towards a life that is so much better.

Yours 'Til Niagara Falls,
Flower Patch Towngirl*


*I will not actually be changing my name. I am only exercising my intermittent flair for the dramatic. Farmgirl is, after all, a condition of the heart.

114 comments:

  1. God does have a purpose and it is greater then our own. It will be great you are strong! ~Lulu

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  2. I'm inspired by so many being obedient to the word of God. Thank you for sharing your story. Praying it goes well for you.

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  3. i'm so inspired by you! to give into the will of God and let him lead your way is an amazingly beautiful thing that most of can only experience upon crisis. blessings to you and yours.

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  4. Sometimes what you think you want, is just a stepping stone for something even better.
    I wish you lots of blessings on this new adventure ~

    Sarah

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  5. Aww, I am so sorry that you are having to leave your farm, farmgirl. ;) BUT I believe that you are dead on with your outlook on the situation. Sometimes it's hard to accept the path that we are placed on. Praying for your through this transition.

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  6. You are a precious soul. I love your thoughts and the way you put them down on your blog. Things WILL work out. Keep your faith and follow His direction.

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  7. Love love love this. Tears pricking my eyelids as I read the end of your post tonight. I am living in that very same state of mind. Today this verse was my strength.

    "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." Isaiah 43:1b-2

    Love you sweet friend. What an adventure we are ON!

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  8. Things do have a way of working themselves out. I'm sure you will create a beautiful home wherever you land. :)
    Christine

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  9. You are wise to follow the Lord. He will lead you in ways everlasting, the Bible says. He is faithful and true!!

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  10. "And the just shall walk by Faith" God has new blessings and joys in the future for your family. And it cannot, and will not, be judged by the world's standards. It will be measured by our Lord's standards which know no height or depth. Life is about seeking first the Kingdom, and He goes on to say," that all these things shall be added unto you." What a promise. You are allowing Him to lead, He will not disappoint. But then you and cute maintenance boy know that. It goes without saying we are praying for you and the steps of faith you are taking.

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  11. I truly believe it will work out for you and you guys will be happy. God always has a purpose. Your faith and obedience are inspiring.

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  12. Wow, I think you have gone through the "year of living dangerously" and have come out victorious and grateful.

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  13. You are so inspiring! Thank you for putting your thoughts down so beautifully and reminding us that the Lord does have the big plan:).

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  14. It is interesting, isn't it . . . why we cry when we let go . . . even believing there is something better coming.

    I cried reading your words this morning and I'm not even letting go! : ) The truth is that I've been there . . . and am there almost every day . . . with big and little things.
    The excitement is in Knowing and Living in Him and Him in us .. . and learning to trust His Love and really walk in it.

    I am very excited for you! and it is so much more than a new place to lay your sweet head!

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  15. Reading this reminds me of our memory verse for this week from the book T & I just started.
    Break up your fallow ground, for it is time to Seek the Lord, till He comes and rains righteousness on you" Hosea 10:12

    I keep asking HIM where in my life do I need to break up the fallow ground to seek Him more.
    The bad thing is I just want to whisper it afraid of what he is going to ask of me....

    Thank you for being a example of following Him, sharing your trials but ultimately submitting and obeying our Savior

    I am blessed by your Godly Mamma’s comments every time she writes. Very encouraging.

    Love you sister in Christ, B

    btw..the wedding...absolutely...divine

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  16. FPF(T)G, I love your obedience. I feel like I should bookmark this post for the times when I feel God calling me to lay down a dream He may have given me to make room in my life for something new. It wil encourage me. I hurt for you but God has prepared your heart, well. I am especially grateful that he has given you and Corey unity in this.

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  17. I love you.
    This is so hard. Following is like jumping off the side of the pool sometimes. He ALWAYS catches us but it's still scary. Praying for you.
    At least you have 12 billion pictures of YOU on the FARM looking sexy while you dump melons...or squash or whatever.

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  18. My heart is so sad for you and yet so excited to see God's plan unfold in your life! Your future home, which will be sitting right in the center of His will, is going to be so loveable!

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  19. God works in mysterious ways... funny how as we draw closer our wants change to what His wants for us are... love love this post! Can't wait to see God's plan unfold... =)

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  20. FPFG, I'm saddened that you are leaving the house you love so much, but galvanized knowing that it's God's next step for you - and with your attitude and obedience - well, let's just say, I betcha you are gonna be one happy girl in the end. Praying for you.

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  21. Here is a quote that I think about quite a bit:
    "Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out." - John Wooden
    You have a great attitude and a greater faith that is so inspiring. I know that everything will be just fine for you because of those 2 things
    xoxo

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  22. I pray blessings on your obedience! What a beautiful lesson to learn and teach your children. I know your new home will be just as warming, beautiful and fun! On another note, I'm wishing my husband was being transferred to IN so we could make an offer:)

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  23. Best wishes as you dive from your safe perch in life to go where the waters will take you.

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  24. We continue to pray for you guys Shannan. You WILL be blessed beyond your wildest expectations because you stepped out in obedience.

    And I am selfishly hoping we can be "neighbors" again. ;)

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  25. I kind of, in a way, know how you feel right now. I too had my little (actually huge)old dream house in a quaint little town and was oh so happy. But life happens. Things change. You learn a new 'normal'. At the age of 48 I let go of that old dream home and moved miles and miles away. It is two years later and I am still in a 'new' little rent house. I have tried to consider it just a new adventure, because in a way it is. I'd be lying if I didn't tell you there were bad/sad/mad days, but I really do know Who is in charge. I am just being led. Slowly (or so it seems to me!!) Most importantly, my new normal has me with my hubby and with or very near my five children (20-28 yrs, old). When all is said and done, that is what really matters. You will be able to make the best of this new chapter in your life. I have no doubt you are only on to bigger and better things! Lori L

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  26. ohshannan, i love your selfless transparent heart. have i told you that before?
    i love that you treasure the simple everyday moments & dream for those yet to come.
    i love how you put your thoughts into eloquent words with a dash of humor, alot of humor actually.
    i think you must have just lifted a weight off his shoulders by affirming his thoughts of moving too
    i think you're wonderful
    & i pray for your family as you step out in faith. you inspire me today
    xo

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  27. My dear, following the direction of the Lord will always lead to happiness. I know it may not seem like it now, but things always happen the way they are supposed to. Perhaps, there is an even better home in your future and by the way, from the looks of your house, you will have no trouble making anything your dream home. I will pray for your lovely family. Best wishes.

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  28. I'm feeling your pain. 2 years ago we left my dream house to move to our dream town. I love the town..not the house. We lived in an antique village colonial...kids walked to school..the market..the library. Now we live in a 1980's colonial on a cul-de-sac. I dream of living in an old house again...but for now..I'm trying real hard to make our house a home I love. Best of luck to you Farmgirl!

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  29. I got goosebumps reading this post. God does have a plan! Of this I am sure. Years ago I lost my dream house in a Sheriff Sale (divorce can get ugly). I was sad but chose to look at my life as an adventure. My girls and I moved. Who knew five short years later, I would find love not only in another man, but in what is now, my true dream house?! God had a plan. Keep praying and continue to have faith. He is listening to your heart...

    Hugs to you and your beautiful family.

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  30. I am so proud of you both. So happy to say that you are my relation. So excited for you. I have been praying and praying since everything has happened. You are making such a great choice for your lives and your children's lives. Love you all so very much.

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  31. Shannon, God is going to do an amazing mighty work with your family. I contiune to be amazed at by your words of grace and humility. Thank you for sharing what God is doing in your life. Your testimony of obedience and "pain in the offereing" is both inspiring and challenging. PS were coming in July!

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  32. Funny (and so loving) how He makes that path ready for our step...I know the sadness and the excitement you are feeling.
    An adventure is yours to have---grab it and hang on!
    annie

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  33. Your attitude is something to admire! I can't imagine making that decision. I'm thinking of you and your's!

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  34. we will keep praying for you guys!

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  35. I am so encouraged and admire your obedience as you follow the Lord on this new journey for your family.

    I love how you said that He can make the unthinkable exciting. His plans and purposes for us can be beyond what we can even imagine if we surrender, trust, and walk in obedience and faith.

    Looking forward to hearing more from you...

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  36. There is nothing sweeter than following, in obedience, where the Lord leads.


    11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
    Jeremiah 29:11 (English Standard Version)

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  37. Life is a journey all the way. I couldn't imagine leaving my farm either, but after my happily ever after ended, I knew I needed a change and couldn't handle working full time, 3 kids and a farm life. It's all good when you're in the right state of mind-embrace change. Just think of it as a new home to decorate!
    Blessings and hugs
    xoxox
    Char

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  38. oh sweetheart....how I hate the loss of your farm for you. But you are wise to follow the direction of the Lord.

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  39. Thank you and Cory for all the wonderful things you did for Sarah this weekend. You have a beautiful God-filled home. You are so unselfish with all the things God has bestowed upon you.
    Best wishes in whatever he bestowes upon you next..I am sure it will be grand!
    Your faith is amazing!

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  40. I think I would cry, too...if I were you. That is one beautiful farm and Homestead. But as you say, it is a condition of the heart.

    I'm sure you would say - "you're growing as you go". Blessings for your future.
    He is in control and that is enough to rest in. Isn't it?

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  41. I am so proud of you for looking at this is as a blessing not a negative. You are a much stronger person than I would be. Good luck, wish your home was closer I would scoop it up as a farm has always been my dream as well.

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  42. You have a way with words that opens my heart to remember I am NOT in control.

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  43. What a wonderful post. I remember when God asked me to trade in my dreams and desires, for something that seemed not as good, but of which He assured me was better (it was in regards to our adoption). It was such a painful time at first when He told me what He wanted that I wouldn't speak to Him for several days, I walked around the house always having the TV on or radio (which is unlike me) to make sure I couldn't hear him, basically I was throwing a tantrum.

    Finally I gave in and chose His path and trusted that indeed it would be best, even if it scared me half to death. It was such a rich time of my life, I grew more during that experience than anything else that I've ever done.

    And yet I imagine selling your house is just as hard, it is a beautiful home. Praying for y'all as you walk this path, not just for where you land but also for what God is doing on the inside during this time.

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  44. Oh my goodness...you guys are inspirational to me. The Lord gave you a gift and now you are at peace with it being taken away. I hope that I would be brave enough to do that as well if God asked me to. Of all the blogs I follow, I've been following yours closely because I feel like although are situations are different, our lesson is the same...God wants us to find peace and comfort in Him alone. It's hard to do, thank you for showing me how it's done! I know that God will continue to bless your family!

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  45. Oh - this broke my heart! But alas - God always has a plan! Someday you'll land back in the country life & it will be great :)

    PS - head on over & visit me today - I shared God's new plan in my life :)

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  46. Oh, my sweet, sweet girl. Our lives are so different but so much a like right now. Love you-
    XOXO

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  47. i knew a bit about this and so i've been praying. (i was also quite curious to see how you'd word this post, and you came through in your signature shannan style, with an honesty both piercing and lyrical.)

    this part, especially, grabs my heart: '...out of obedience, which is probably the most necessary thing I can imagine.'

    i know i'm not the Person from whom you long to hear these words, but nonetheless: well done.

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  48. This post is awesome. I wish I could know you in person...you are such an amazing girl! I love how you and your husband are of like mind and heart. What a blessing that is.

    I will remember to lift up your family in prayer as well as this new journey you're on.

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  49. You are an amazing person, and I'm sure you will bounce back to the farm someday. Until then, make the most of it, and enjoy your journey. God always has a plan for us.

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  50. I don't know why our blog paths have never crossed but I'm so glad they did today. Thank you for sharing what God has put on your heart and thank you for showing us how you have the strength and the discipline to be obedient. Obedience should be #1 in all our lives but sadly it is not. God has a big beautiful plan for you guys, even bigger and better than you have ever imagined.

    Please stop by sometime and visit.

    xo
    LeAnn

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  51. When we trust in our Lord, amazing things happen. Can't wait to see where He takes you next...

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  52. I commend you both for listening. It is so hard sometims to decipher between fleshy screams and our Father's whispers...

    The wedding looked simply superb. Impeccable!

    Praying for you and for the new happy couple.

    Sincerely, The Lady of the House

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  53. ohh goodness I am teary eyed, not sure exactly why, but I am...I know God has special plans for you my dear and you will end up exactly where you need to be!

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  54. I'm not sure if your Cortland sign means Cortland, Ohio or if that's just a coincidence...but that's where I'm from!

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  55. As long as you have the love of your adorable family, you can make a home anywhere. Still sad that changes have put that for sale sign in your yard but keep believing that things weill be better. Hey, maybe you'll move back to Ohio. Good luck.

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  56. God is always asking for our obiedence, and for us to trust him. This is sometimes the hardest thing to do. You are placing a home and dreams that you love in His hands. But remember that He loves you, and only wants the best for you and your family! Sometimes just the act of obiedence is all He asks for... He will reward you for your obiedence and will bless you ten fold.

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  57. Tears just sprang to my eyes. Not just (or even mostly) because I feel a little sadness that you may be leaving your dreamy farmy house and land, but because your obedience is so beautiful. And convicting.

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  58. I admire your attitude knowing you're giving up what you love but, also knowing something better is on the other side.

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  59. I read this last week, and it just came back to mind.
    Hebrews 3:4
    "For every house is built by someone, but God is the builder of everything."
    Many prayers for His leading.

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  60. You know, I don't know you, and I Know it doesn't really matter what I think. But, I like you.

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  61. Your faith is so pure and inspiring..... I pray this new journey brings you much joy, contentment and peace !

    hugs,
    gena
    www.thehouseonlavenderhill.blogspot.com

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  62. Think of the time you have had there as a gift. Instead of being sad for your loss, feel it as a celebration of greatness. I know that it's hard, but perhaps with practice. Go over it in your mind, and focus on the positive things that you can look forward to in your non-farmhouse home to be.

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  63. Oh you are in my heart today!!!! Praying for you and Corey as you walk this next path.

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  64. I will add you to my prayer intentions. I am in awe of the faith you have. Blessings to you + your family! I so enjoy your blog!!

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  65. Your persepctive is inspiring. Way to Obey God and your husband! Praying that God will open the exact right doors for your family and that your husband will feel complete liberty to move in the direction he feels is best for your fam!

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  66. I've been in your shoes... as distreessing as it is at the time, life has a way of moving on and so do we. All is well... and will be.
    Blessing to you and your family.
    Laurie

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  67. What a gift God gave you to be in agreement with your hubby, that your hubby walks with the Lord, that God speaks to both of your hearts and your both willing to hear and obey! I do not have that, but I am overjoyed for you that you do, it makes me smile. And I know that where ever you guys end up, you will succeed because you two are one with God. You are a very smart girl to let go of your farm house to follow Jesus!
    I am excited to hear where you end up!

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  68. Oh sweetie...this kind of breaks my heart. I love envisioning you out there in the country, but I know better than to question God. He will definitely lead you to better pastures. He's got greatness in store for all of you. I'm sure of it!!!

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  69. I am beyond teary-eyed...crying...your words are so beautifully written and your constant strength just inspires me....you are very strong...and I love your insightfulness into everything....God has amazing plans for you...he already has too.
    xoxo

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  70. Shannan...i can't tell you how much this post meant to me...at this moment. We have had some bad luck and are creeping toward the same realization. hugs, hugs, hugs to you and your beautiful family. all will be well.
    oxo
    Tara

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  71. But covet earnestly the best gifts: and yet shew I unto you a more excellent way.
    1 Corinthians 12:31

    God is good, and being in the center of his will is so sweet. I am praying he gives you and your hubby wisdom and understanding to know just what his will is. God bless you.

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  72. Praying for you. God never allows a fire unless He can bring beauty from the ashes. Sometimes our trials are necessary to fulfill our callings.
    The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me...He has sent me ... to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. Isaiah 61:1-3
    God bless you. xoxo

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  73. Wow, you are so inspiring. We are in the process of making that same decision and I have been sad and angry and stubborn but God is working in me and humbling me. Your It's comforting to know that we aren't alone in this. Good luck with everything.
    ~Charity

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  74. I'll be praying for peace for you and your family and that God opens doors and shows you where you're meant to be.

    Once again your words touch my heart, which although this seems the wrong time, is why I have a bloggy award for you over on my blog. Stop by when you're ready and pick it up.

    Wishing you only the best on the next step of your journey.

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  75. Shannon, the Lord hears your prayers and he knows your needs as well. I am so amazed how he speaks to us and if we follow his ways he will bless us beyond our imagination. I really love your writings. U do such good work. May the Lord Bless and keep u in his hands.

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  76. ...i have just now found your blog...i am 62 years old...and i will never ever know you or see you on this earth...but sweet sister i cannot wait to know you in heaven...

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  77. Wow! Obedience like that scares me, I would ignore it, I know I would, eventually I would give in, but that's so awesome to see you and your husband so freely give into to the plans you know God has for you. I've never commented on here before, but I must also say that I want to be your friend, I want to hang out with your kids and I want to come and hang out in your kitchen so you can teach me to cook :) good luck with the selling of your gorgeous home and the search for your new one!

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  78. i just learned a lot from this one post. my first thought is, i'm sorry, but i can't say that because you already know that the bigger and better is waiting for you and your family.

    blessings to you for really seeing what you needed to do. i live in denial, but this makes me think.

    your farmhouse is beautiful, a labor of love as you called it, but we all really know that it's not the house that makes a home. it's the family and life inside.

    your next house will be even more beautiful, regardless of what or where it is bc there are some fab people moving in:)

    congrats on the move! can't wait to hear the adventures.

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  79. what a beautiful home you have. but i know it is an extension of your soul, your lovely God-soul, and that wherever you are, your home will make the holy, present. joining you in this journey, friend... let`s walk long and hard and not look back. e.

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  80. this makes me ever so sad. I know that 'home is where the heart is'; or 'where ever we are is home', but it still is sad to leave a love. I wish you peace during this transition. You seem to be handling it so well, and leaving it in God's hands is sometimes all one can do. I hope everything works out happily for you and your family.

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  81. Shannan,

    I am near tears at seeing how God prepares us for the unthinkable. You already know how similar our walks are at this moment... I hope you know you're not alone. I am praying for you guys... and I loved the peek inside your beautiful farmhouse.

    ...I can't wait to see how you show the rest of us townies how to transform our town-houses into sanctuaries. Because I have a feeling that's what's coming next! :)

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  82. What is it with you Indiana girls and your wild sense of adventure?
    Seriously though, with God leading the way and your willingness to follow, I can't wait to see what He has in store for your family. Great things are on the horizon!

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  83. Praying for you!!! I know that obedience like this takes great faith and perseverance! I am a fellow Indiana girl... Purdue area. Where are you located?? Your home is beautiful and down the road you will see the beauty in God's complete plan!
    Heather

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  84. wow wow wow. i love your obedience. He's got you on a grand journey sister!

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  85. Thank you for sharing your heart in this post...your obedience and trust are a marvel and I know that there are amazing divine plans waiting for you.

    I've always known that "God is up to something"...and sometimes when we least expect it, it is EXACTLY what we need.

    'Praying for you and for a calm heart.
    oxoxoxoxo
    Lara

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  86. All I could think of in reading your post was the Christian song about opening the eyes in my heart Lord. Clearly your hearts are open and your faith is strong. We are never tested beyong our capacity to respond, and I believe that someday - on the other side of this trial - you will see more clearly the Lord's purpose and be glad. Our prayers will be with you. Stay strong and keep focused on the good - it is everywhere.

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  87. oh goodness dear shannan, this is not what I was expecting to read about your home. Here I am pining for a move while you are not, yet you are the one God has called to something new and If i know God, Something MORE! He has such amazing things in store for your family. (I know you know this) and this is just the tip of the ice burg! You are a light in this world! I can't wait to see where this leads but I promise you God will use it to grow you and remember He works ALL THINGS out for good! Much love to you today!

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  88. I know your followers say this again and again, but you have such a way with words. I keep reading and can't get enough sometimes. I am praying for you, your husband, and your children. I know God has a plan for each of us and this is a journey that will continue to give you and your family experiences that will enhance your lives. Thinking of you! ~Katie

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  89. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you for sharing your upcoming changes with us. Know that prayers for God's direction are heading your way. HE is always in control and has great plans.

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  90. Wow. What memories you've created for your little ones in that home! I'm sure they'll treasure them always, no matter where you are. I really admire your obedience! Jesus will definitely bless you for it!

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  91. Your home is beautiful and your words are true. Keep clinging to Truth. Blessings to you and yours on this journey.

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  92. Oh but our human side wants to hold on to 'our things'. I love the attitude you are choosing to have, to follow HIM. And yet you are honest about the sadness and tears. I can so understand how you feel, I would feel the same about leaving here. We've put so much of ourselves into this place, and yet, this is not our home, HEAVEN is! Thanks for the reminder to follow HIS plan and not our own. I will be thinking of you and praying for you.

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  93. You and Cory are living my dream...buying a farm house, having amish neighbors, acerage, old barn, barn cats, filling it with old things and giving it all new life...I just recently discovered your blog and have been devouring your pictures, and swooning over your life. My husband is not a patient fix it kind of guy, though, and I am not much better. I have admired you both for your approach to fixing up your home. Wow! Living with an old kitchen floor for a year until you could afford a new one. Sooo wise to not go into debt over it all!

    I would be throwing a big fit and pity party to have my dream to just give it up. The Holy Spirit would have to do a major work in my heart. It is so inspiring to see how willing you and Cory are to be led by God. To hold onto your things so loosely. Praise be to God!

    Do you have your house on the market yet? I live in Indiana and am interested in knowing more about the sale of your house. Would you be willing to email me at joelnkelly at hotmail dot com?

    Thank you,
    Kelly

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  94. I am so moved by your words, once again.
    I know what it's like to leave a place you watched your babies grow up and it is so bittersweet.
    I know what it is to say aloud the things you don't want or "fear" and then how God uses those as an invitation and I want to take them back but KNOW He will make good of it.
    Your obedience is a witness to a heart that needs it...mine!

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  95. Shannan ~

    I enjoy reading your hearfelt prose. Thanks for sharing your journey.

    Every where you are with your beautiful family is home.

    Best of luck to you in this endeavour.

    ~Andrea in NH

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  96. Oh girl- I know it is hard to give up one dream, but surely there is another close at hand.

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  97. I know easier said than done, but at my (old) age I SO believe in my favorite movie quote ever (besides everything from Napoleon Dynamite) "When one door closes another opens." And then when that door opens, you look back and think, "Thank God for that closed door" because life ends up being greater than you ever dreamed.
    Change is always hard. (Or it sucks...whatever way you want to put it.)

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  98. sweet friend,
    this post nearly brought me to tears, because even if you are doing the right thing, you certainly aren't doing the easy thing. you have such courage and such strength, and I admire both. I know how tied we get to our homes, to the dream of creating a place that we will raise our families and grow old in. but a home is where our family is, right? and you and yours are strong and bonded and will make a wonderful home in town - and I am certain, find amazing things about that home as well.
    much love to you,
    xx

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  99. You know... we just moved, a big move, big change, a 'lifestyle' move... a geographic move... a pay-cut move... with hopes and dreams. I always feel like telling you stuff like this, because your posts just 'speak' to me. like all the other 100 commenters.
    And turning it over to God & His mighty direction just seems like the best thing to do. As we try to decipher 'where' intown, small town, up-town, down-town, private, public, home, small church, big church... work, don't work... I'll be remembering you in prayer, and know I'm not alone. That means you aren't either. I like Sarah's Napoleon quote... so true. I'm already seeing it now, & our change is only 1 month old...
    Enjoyed the hi-cooo & the quilt is to die for.. what a friend. hang tough, farm girl.

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  100. You are such an amazing inspiration to me....and I can't wait to hear how His next chapter unfolds. He will give you strength...and with you and your husband there, there will always be a beautiful home for your children to come home too.
    Hugs to you...

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  101. This is such a beautiful post. We recently moved and I remember those first tuggings that God placed on my heart. I struggled with them because I didn't want to let go of our house...our first house, the house to which I brought my babies home. It was amazing how God worked in my heart over the next year and how he led us to a new life in a different state. I know that he will give you the peace that always follows those uncomfortable tuggings.

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  102. I still don't even know what to say... I didn't have the right words the other night, and I still don't other than that you're an inspiration. Your home is amazing and my dream one day, I just worry that I wouldn't have the strength and faith to listen and follow God's leading like you. BUT, I must remember and know (like you do...) that HE knows best and knows your dreams before you do. You will land exactly where you were supposed to according to His plan and dream for you and your beautiful family.

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  103. Your faith is truly inspiring! You have been given amazing strength in everything you've endured and I can't wait to hear more about where God leads you!

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  104. I pray for blessing for you on the next leg of your journey. This was a beautiful post.

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  105. A truly beautiful post! You are so strong, your right some day you will understand why it all happened. God will watch over you. I have friends going through this and it breaks my heart! You are in my thoughts!
    XO

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  106. that is hard stuff.
    i know that feeling....wishing i hadn't said it out loud.
    God makes His will known even when we try not to see. :)

    what an adventure.
    it will be awesome.

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  107. This is such a beautiful post! You are right about being a farm girl,it is what is in your heart that matters most! Good luck with your new adventure and God will continue to watch over you and your family!

    Kelli
    xoxo

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  108. your spirit and trust will help lead you on your way. but, i too, know the fears and sadness of uncertainty and how hard it is to know that there is a reason even before it becomes apparent. my husband was laid off for 6 months and we are just now figuring things out and getting the answers we so desperately wanted before but, we are not quite settled down yet as our house needs to sell.

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  109. Love your writing style,your realness and your faith in our great God. Will look forward to hearing more about your obedient steps as it all unfolds. Blessings to you and yours from 'down under'
    Shani @ christmasriver.wordpress.com
    PS I found you from Meadowbrook farm's blog...both of you are adorable!!

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  110. amen-obedience leads to contentment for sure! xo

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