Tuesday, November 17, 2009

What a Difference Two Weeks Makes

I love all of the seasons. I really, truly do.

OK, some of them I love, some of them I only like.

Fine - some of them I tolerate.

But I love the idea of all 4 seasons and I believe that my life would not be complete without them. I think the thing I love most about The One That I Only Tolerate is that it gives me pause to wrap myself burrito-style in my ugly blue fleece blanket and daydream about the months to come.

I'm anticipatory like that.

It's on my mind - that marginally tolerable one - because, well, I hear the train a'comin'.

It's rollin' round the bend.

And I decided something today. Rather than merely surviving it - rather than using it as a point of contrast to the prettier, cheerier seasons, I will try to celebrate it. I will attempt to hunt for the beauty in it.

Mind you, this is experimental. I'm signing on as the first official participant in the study.

As surely as I type these words, I am signing the waiver and consent. Because experiments can be hazardous. I learned this the hard way in Mr. Short's chemistry lab.

But maybe my earnest commitment to the cause will bring healing to other Winter-weary souls for years to come. I like to think of this as my stout-hearted contribution to the improved, seasonal mental health of myself and those around me. In a way, I am a pioneer, no? I am venturing forth to blaze a trail through layers of ice and the darkest of days. I will probably be wearing my green robe over my clothes most days, but you will be none the wiser.

I, Flower Patch Farmgirl, vow to hitch up my knee socks and live these next 4 months as though they are a regular part of my life and not a scheduled interruption.

In a testament of good faith, I bring you this:

On my way to eat Thai with Sarah and Holly, I happened upon a break in the grey. It was the only break in all of the grey today, of that I am sure. But I was there. I saw it with my own two eyes, and my Lumix FZ28.

It felt hopeful to me. The light is always there. It wants to be seen.

I intend to keep looking.

But I hope you will still love me if it turns out that Winter really is just crummy. With experiments this bold, one never can anticipate the outcome.

20 comments:

  1. Ah the weather.. I'm experiencing nasty winds and my fence just blew over last night!! This time of year... yuck. Good thing we have the holidays!

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  2. Oh, how much I enjoy your musings! You are such a gifted writer. And...as another Midwest gal, I hear you on the Winter subject. Here we go!

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  3. There is something to be said about experiencing the true seasons, it's similar to the ebb and flow of life-right? Here in Florida we only have two seasons...hot and very hot.:)
    My husband and I have toyed with the idea of moving more north, but the truth is I don't know how I would handle a bitter winter!

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  4. I'll join you! I will look at it as not an interruption either with those cold barreling {windy} days:)

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  5. I vow to love you no matter what. But there really is a lot to love about winter. Especially if you choose to love from the comfort of your own home. Of course that's easy for me to say because I have an attached garage. That won't always be the case.

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  6. I am right there with you.... As soon as the madness of the holidays has settled, I go into a major funk.... February is the absolute worst for me, thankfully it's the shortest of months... I hope your experiment is successful!

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  7. I never knew you so disdained fall and winter...I'm sure you are going to find some great photos and moments to share the next four months. I can't wait!

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  8. Indiana winters are brutal. I've determined to make lots of money so I can go south for the winter when my kids are grown. (pipe dream) Maybe we'll get snow instead of ice this year for Christmas, eh?

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  9. aaahh, i agree about the seasons. there was once a time when i was sure that i couldn't possibly live somewhere that didn't experience the full change of seasons. the older i get, though, i am pretty sure i'd be just fine living somewhere else!

    sometimes i think we use our sucky experiences of living with the crappy midwestern winters as some sort of superiority over those that start wearing parkas when it hits 65 down south! while that idea may be fun, i admit, i believe i'd rather live in the south, even for a while, just to see if i'm right.

    and hey, where do you eat thai? i would love to find a good local place:)

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  10. You are so funny and don't hate me but I'm here in FL. hating it cause it is ALWAYS HOT, we never have ANY seasons, I wish I was on a farm somewhere where I could experience what you have!!
    Hugs~Kelly

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  11. Or.....you could get a little vacation house here with me in CA for the 4 months! :) Just an idea...I think there is a house for sale down the street...December is a cool 65 here!
    alas, I am sure that is not in the plan, so I will keep my fingers crossed this little experiment goes just the way the teacher planned!

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  12. your blog is delightful
    i love your sense of humor
    & good luck on your experiment!
    as i write from my home on a dreary wet day....sigh
    xo

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  13. I am going to embrace it too this year. I have decided to try and convince my husband how much we 'need' to try cross country skiing. We will either be in great shape come spring or black and blue. Either way it will be something fun to do together. Good luck!
    ~Debra The Capers of the Vintage Vixens

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  14. Good luck with your experement!

    I'll be your cheering section - repeat after me . . . winter is grand, winter is grand, winter is grand!

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  15. i wouldn't really mind winter if snow and ice didn't settle on roads. really, that is winter's major downfall in my opinion.

    i will still be your friend even if you love winter in the end :) as long as you promise to come and pick me up when we do something so i don't have to drive in the snow ;)

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  16. i do enjoy all the seasons EXCEPT summer. I only like about the first 6 weeks of summer than that's it. OVER !!

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  17. I'll read your blog no matter what this experiment brings... LOL I'm finding fun in shopping for scarfs, mittens, coats to brighten my winter months,
    LuLu

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  18. boy oh boy...today was one of those super crummy Indiana days were it took everything in me to remain even a tiny bit happy!! And I definitely didn't find any beauty in the day!! Good luck to you!! For me...I am anxiously awaiting SUMMER:)

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  19. You have the sweetest farmgirl personality...you are living the life I dreamed of. But I have found happiness in what the LORD has given me. I lOvE winter!!! But then again, I am in Northern California. I do know what your winter is like, 10 yrs. ago, in pursuit of that farm-living lifestyle dream we moved to Kansas, them Missouri...but ended up back home in Cali. It is miserably cold in the midwest...but I found such beauty in what seemed like 'death' in winter. LOVED the dusting of snow, everything magically white in an hour. I'm glad you are going to try and find delight in it. A good heart change I would say.

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  20. Oh, dear Flower Patch Pal, I, too, suffer in winter...I admit it...of course, I live in complete SLOP for 5-6 months (being that I live in the NW) and it's hard, for sure. BUT---I do relish the "curl-up" time...the coffee shop talks with friends as rain collects out the window (even pelting it like a gun) and I am thankful for those few clear days that pop through in April...maybe May.

    You will make it through and you have so many exciting things coming your way--can't wait to see the posts that honor them.
    :)
    Lara

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