Sunday, October 18, 2009

A Slight Departure from a Mostly Happy Place

Remember my husband? The one who is teaching himself the fine art of photography? He recently lured me outside for a real-live photo shoot. He had a semi-real client coming a few days later and needed a little practice. I gave him 20 minutes. I did not gloss up my lips. I did not even fluff my hair. (As if it fluffs - ha!)

I mostly complied because of this:

These sizzly bean fields had been driving me wild and for several weeks, they had us surrounded. I'm happy to have a picture of myself perched in their midst.

But here's the thing about me these days: I've been slightly off kilter. It doesn't happen often and when it does, I do some dwelling.

Whereas I typically feel like this:

Lately I've been feeling a little more:


I can't entirely put my finger on it. And I'm not just saying that.

I've had trouble sleeping for the past two nights and this is the best possible scenario I've concocted:

Between late June and mid-September (2.5 months, folks) my family underwent 3 semi-major surgeries (2 of which were courtesy of yours truly) and 3 illnesses involving fevers and in some cases, the collection of little-people feces.

Sorry people, you asked.

Oh wait.....

Anyway, I think this is one of those times when you don't realize the cumulative effects of the relentless curve-balls of life until after the dust settles a little.

It has all left me feeling a little crabby and jittery. I can't shake this feeling that I missed out on my Summer. I have had difficulty accepting that Fall is here and I've caught myself daydreaming, on several occasions, about potential Summer '10 vacations. And yeah, it's October.

Doesn't this whiny post make you excited to see what I'll have to share by, say, mid-February?

In the meantime, I'm on a mission to regain some perspective and inspiration. I'm determined to shed my worries. I'm gonna slink right out of this funk.

And if it's more difficult than I plan, I'll just take a peek every now and then at this ridiculous shot. (That's right - I love Cory so much that I pretended to be a bean-jumper. I am so not a bean jumper...)

Before you know it, this lady will be back among the living.


By the way, lady, thems some veiny hands you've got.

32 comments:

  1. Looks like fun Shannan! I can somehow relate to that "off" feeling? And sorry that you are in the midst of it! May the Lord lift your spirit in fun and unexpected ways, bringing you a renewed sense of energy and zest!

    ~Heather

    By the way, did you think to give Cory a hard time at all? Just a little annoyance in preparation for the real thing? HE,HE :)

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  2. I think your photos rock, funk or not. I know what you mean about the fall and winter... I love a break from the hot, hot temps, but when it starts getting dark at 4:30, I get in a funk. How about taking a early Summer '10 vacation?

    Smiles!
    Michelle

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  3. Ooooo I could draw blood from those veins easily. I love a person with good veins. lol.

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  4. Fall always throws me into a funk too. Something about the approach of winter and yet another birthday. . . Yuck!

    Love Cory's pictures though! He's getting good. Of course, it helps that he has a knock out for a wife and the cutest kids in the world to "practice" on. :)

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  5. love that first photo!! and i just know you will get out of this funk with you fabulously creative self!! think pumpkin pie & pumpkin dip & christmas tree decorating......hot chocolate....smores.....am i helping :)

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  6. happens to the best of us...i love your blog and you always inspire me with your optimism and flowers! you can't be up all the time. hope your funk is short lived and just know that through bloggy land i really enjoy hearing about your little life! xoxo

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  7. Your hubs has talent..not to be rivaled with your writing talent. You are an amazing writer. I love your wit and honesty. Chin up lovely lady. P.S. Your kids couldn't be any cuter. Your boy...the headband and the sweatsuit. circa 1982. He's like his own little rap group. A doll.
    Keep writing, I love reading...and I can so relate. :)

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  8. Life has a way of snowballing on you sometimes. Then WHAM! Before ya know it, you're grasping for a hand to help pull ya out. It's only for a season, but it feels like forever, doesn't it?
    Your friends here in blogland love you and are praying for ya.
    Anne

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  9. I totally hear you on the down in the dump-ness. I have been the same lately. Why? I don't really know. Just when I think my gray cloud has disappeared, it re-appears. I know it is just a phase as yours is, too. A lot of praying, tears in church and reflection going on right now. God is always there. Thinking of you....:) Your photos are so stinkin cute, by the way.

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  10. I love your jumping picture! Funny, because that pic is a metaphor for you leaping into a state of happiness and relief.
    He's holding you in His hands, my friend~
    ox
    Lara

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  11. I hate being in a funk. I hate not understanding my funk. Feeling like you missed something in the chaos of life is--well--difficult and regrettable. Give yourself the chance to admit it all sorta sucked and then jump in those bean fields as much as you have to to enjoy THIS season before it too is past!

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  12. You are adorable! I completely understand the feeling in a funk thing. I'm there with ya. Thank you for being real. Blessings for a great week ahead!
    Nora

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  13. Great pics, so fun! I have been feeling that way and have decided that in November I need to make some time for me! Hope you are feeling better soon, Have a sweet day!

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  14. How cute are you? By the way - the photo in front of the fabulous white chippy barn looks like it came right out of the J.Crew catalogue. Lori

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  15. Love the bean field...hate the funk...love the last picture too! Have a wonderful Monday!

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  16. Shannon, I could be way off here...but everyone I know, that is creative, and lives in the northern part of Indiana has been in a funk. It was an odd summer, and an awful fall (so far). Not discounting your families surgeries, etc...but sometimes I think, as bloggers, we are always looking for the creative perfection, the things that make our hearts stop and swell. I honestly think that when we don't find enough of those things, we get in a funk. Like I said, I could be way off...but just an idea.

    You'll be right as rain soon, and if you aren't...we'll still be here reading and cheering you on.

    Cute pics! Would love to be as slim as you are!

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  17. We all go through it, it's just what women do, I know I have my moments! Love all your pic's, your so pretty and I sure wish I was as tall and skinny as you, look on the bright side at least you don't have to worry about losing weight,lol!!

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  18. I think all mommies go through times like you're describing. I have anyway! Sometimes life feels a tad bit overwhelming, but once we gain perspective things seem to get better. Hang in there!

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  19. He did a great job! You looked great in each picture. I understand about the Fall blues. In Minnesota the weather doesn't get nice until mid-June and it just flies by. Fall just reminds me that winter is nipping at it's heels!! Hears hoping and praying you get out of your funk. We got a long way until Spring. I guess we have to make the most of it;)

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  20. I'm feeling a bit 'out of place' posting in a predominately female blog. However, I have to ask Shannon, in the last photo, what are you holding in your veiny hands? (Nice buckle!)

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  21. You look beautiful...and another thing in common...veiny hands! Mine are terrible! I wrote a funny post about "funks"...I was in one too...and it has everything to do with health! (I have it posted for next Monday...lots of "get out of a funk" ideas!)

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  22. Hey sweet girl. I hope you are feeling back on soon. I promise to give it my all to help. I'm thinking I wondering if your talented hubby would come to town for Maddie's senior pics next year!

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  23. oh my goodness..you are stinkin adorable.
    so sorry about your funk...it stinks...
    xo

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  24. You are adorable and your husband's photos are amazing!

    XOXO

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  25. love the pics...sorry to hear that you are feeling a little funky. i'll be praying for ya!

    Adrienne

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  26. Amazing photos - the bean field was a wonderful backdrop - love it. Your sweet hubby does an amazing job.

    Hope your able to kick your funk in the you know what soon. In the meantime, please remember we love you and enjoy hearing from you.

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  27. Don't worry, by February you're going to be too busy changing diapers to have the winter blahs!

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  28. Great pics! Praying your funk will end soon. :-) I know the feeling and it can be tough.

    Lovely blog and thanks for stopping by!

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  29. I say everyone's entitled to be in a funk every now and again...and you've had a bit of a rough go of it! We, here in the Midwest, totally got jipped out of Summer, and Fall is not lookin too good either...so I'm right there with ya!

    :) T

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  30. This calls for more "girls nights out" for dinner! I'm sorry you're feeling so yucky. :(

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  31. I love the pictures, especially the next to last one.

    The best way for me to get out of my funk is to be thankful for what I have and what I have survived... Things could've turned out a lot worse than they did with your busy, sad summer.

    And the leaves are about to change... oh the beauty!

    And you could always have my mom, an OB nurse, who reminds you everyday how someone has it worse: today she said on her myspace that she had TWO 14 year-old patients today.

    And if thinking about the vacations for Summer 2010 cheers you up... dream away!

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  32. I found my first gray hair today (no joke). If that gives you any indication of what life is like over here in the City lately. It's been tough these latter days. Wish I could help more, if only we lived closer...one thing that got me on the way to work is that anyone who is healthy needs to wake up each day and be thankful! In this world, it's no small feat1

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