Friday, February 27, 2009

Balance - It's a good thing.

Melissa, over at The Inspired Room, has issued a challenge to take a step back and evaluate the level of connectedness in our lives and whether that connectedness is a good thing, or a...not so good thing.

Uh oh.

Here I was all eager to check out the weekly link-up challenge, which is typically something having to do with decorating and inspired, joyful living. I was not expecting to be faced with certain conviction over something I have already been wrestling with.

I have found myself frequently thinking that I spend too much time on the computer. And in theory, it seems like an easy fix. But in theory, everything seems easy. It's actually very difficult. I work from home and 90% of my work is done on the computer. I check my email a bazillion times a day, partly because I need to, and partly because, at this point, it's pure habit.

Then there's facebook. Oh dear. Here's the thing about facebook: I love the fact that it has allowed me to connect with people that I would not ordinarily be nearly as connected to. I love sharing mundane bits of life with my peeps. I love all of the nonsense. It's rather entertaining, but it's also a bit mind-numbing. It's one of those things where, if I am not careful, I will realize that I have spent an hour of prime kid-in-bed time doing absolutely nothing. Rather than spending my time doing something that makes me feel relaxed, at peace, renewed, I spend it aimlessly, and without purpose.

All I know is that I want my kids to remember my face more clearly than the back of my head. I want to never forget what it's like to read something on an actual page. I want to know that my friends will always be my friends, even if I go an entire week without writing on their walls. I want to remember that the noise in my life isn't always necessarily noisy.

I believe in balance, and I know that my blog brings me joy and an email from a friend lifts me up. But far more, the joy in my life comes from my husband, my children, my relationship with the Lord, moments of true quiet, nature, the simplicity of life.

These are the things that I have to protect and make room for.

Everything else is secondary.